I wish that I could fast forward to six months to a year from now, to a time when all that I am dealing with today is behind me and resolved in whatever way it is resolved - while realizing that I might not like the outcome. In fact it is one way I deal with difficulties in life, telling myself that this too shall end. That a time will come when this is behind me.
For now I am just trying to breathe and feel my feet on the ground.